Happy 4th of July from Los Angeles!
I know we’re celebrating America but I still feel very Vietnamese and need to listen to my V-pop music 😉 haha
It was so gloomy and cloudy this morning. I am so happy the sun is finally out.
I was beginning to feel sad, lonely and homesick.
I’m taking it very easy today and relaxing at home with my sister. I have to wake up early to go to work tomorrow. When I feel sad I turn to music, books and hot baths with epsom salt 🙂
I miss speaking Vietnamese. I speak so much English here that I feel like my Vietnamese is fading. I must connect with more Vietnamese people that way I can speak the language more often.
The reality is there is not a lot of Vietnamese people in Los Angeles. I feel like all my international friends returned back to their home country. They didn’t think too fondly of America 🙁 which makes me sad. I wish there were more International students here.
I know my reasons for staying. I just hope I make it. I feel terrified and scared. At times I don’t believe in myself. But then I just look back at all the struggles and hardships when I came to this country. It makes me feel like I can do anything I set my mind to.
The past few weeks were rough. I think I worry too much about the future. I am learning to ground myself more in the present and enjoy my life no matter where I’m at. I felt upset with myself for not achieving all my goals. But I just have to remind myself that I just graduated 6 months ago. Anything good takes time, patience and requires effort.
I’m learning to be more patient and kind to myself. At the end of the day it’s just me that I have to deal with. I can only be my own best friend.
“Transformation is not a small task. It’s brutal.”
I think this accurately describes where I’m at in my life.
I’m incredibly grateful to live, study and work in this country. Even though many people seem to not like America as much, I think differently. I love this country. America gave me a chance to be who I truly am.
I am going to kick ass the next few months.
I miss going out and seeing friends at school and back home. This pandemic has been too much. I need to fly back home and hug my grandma, mother and father. They are so precious. I wouldn’t be in this country without their help, love and unconditional support.
Au Revoir and bisous! xx hope you enjoy the music and get a taste of Vietnamese culture 😉
